It takes a few days after a failed treatment to get back into the rhythm of normal life. In this case, it's been 5 days since the D&C. I finally had a really happy day.
This is what it looked like: A good book, a honey ginger tea, a park bench bathed in warm sun, a crisp blue autumn sky, red, leaves changing colours, baby asleep in stroller next to me. Perfection. Thank-you universe for today.